I woke up today, still living in my dream last night.
I dreamt that i can walk.
I remembered that in my dream, somehow some idiot go steal my crutches, then i was damn pissed so i showed him (its a him i think. a ’she’ wun usually do sth so bo liao) that i can walk.
Then I WAS WALKING LAH. feels damn amazing.
its like close to 3 months, i walk around hopping then suddenly can walk.
Then i wake up today, try pressing my left foot on the ground and sadly, i still have to hop around.
Anyway to those who happen to be wondering what happen to my jaw, cos i din really update about it here.
I’m fine already. not painful liao.
I’m eating toacker wafers everyday. But just now my stomach was aching for some reason, then now i’m a little scared of eating that many wafers in that afternoon. I haven’t even started on the haagen dazs ice-cream lah. (my mom just re-stocked 2 pints two days ago. HAHA)
then i went to shit then now feeling better liao. just now my ass was burning sia.
oops. too much detail.
Yeah, so my jaws okay already. thanks for everyone’s concern!
Anyway i was watching Harold & Kumar 1 just now online in the afternoon and compared to the one i watched on saturday with section 2, the latter’s much better i feel. Though the show is more obscene and stuff but it was much funnier and nicer i feel.
AND my fren online now talking to me is telling me that she is eating pringles and 300gm of famous amos cookies.
ARGH. i want cookies. very long nvr eat liao.
OH and does anyone NOT know today’s ben and jerry’s free cone day?
I decided to stay at home though i’m a big fan of ice-cream. Just too lazy to go out.
ice-cream only ma? i also have at home. HEH
Oh and today i spent more time chatting and reading online than playing dota and watching youtube.
one reason is cos i dont know why i can’t watch some videos then it got me quite frustrated.
Then dota is starting to bore me, that’s why not playing that much liao.
(almost 3 months of dota EVERYDAY. no surprise why)
and yeah i was talking to my NBF today online.
HAHA NBF, u reading this not?
(NBF = New Best Friend)
She also didnt get to eat free ice-cream today. But at least i got to eat it last year. She missed last year’s one and this year’s one. nvm there’s still next year right? haha
I think my dota buddies are waiting for me to host game liao.
So i better stop blogging soon.
And for anyone who’s reading this and happens to care about how’s my leg and when my mc is ending, i got a checkup tomorrow.
And of course, i’m hoping for an extension in my mc.
haha come on man, let’s face it.
Who don’t like having long-term mc?
I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three
The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine
For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic
I know I’ll never see the sun,
as 1.7321
Such is my reality,
a sad irrationality
When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three
As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer
We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands
Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed - David Feinberg
I found this poem on Yahoo!Answers.
And it seems to be the correct one. (if i didn’t remember wrongly)
damn cool right?
anyway i solved math qns for my bro yesterday and i felt damn accomplished
it feels more accomplished than winning 56046905 games of dota.
Btw, is anyone able to sponsor me about 500 bucks? i want buy ps3, just so i can play Grand Theft Auto VI. The gameplay is wicked sick and the graphics is godlike.
here’s the trailer weiliang showed me just now.
I’m sorry if u found the title abit offensive but i found it funny when i first heard it.
I went out with section 2 yesterday.
I was late, as usual.
We were supposed to meet at 6.30pm. At around 6.28pm, Bing Cong called me to say he just woke up. Haha. he damn poor thing.
He hasn’t slept properly for like 2 days liao, then has to spend his weekend sleeping away.
Thursday (i think) he got live-firing for day and night, then he reached back company line at 2am. Then they were made to clean rifles until 5am, which is freaking retarded imho. i think the reveille timing was 6am? not very sure. Thats why he’s so tired.
Anyway, it was great to see the guys again.
Everyone is still very much the same.
Just that Darren and I have the longest hair around.
Cos apparently, the sispec guys have cut their hair twice. And were made to look like some chao recruits when they’re not.
We met glenn on the while walking thru the citylink mall.
He looked different sia. Got the OCS aura.
And that shirt he was wearing is damn nice la.
But sadly, yours truly is in the OCS Reject Club. LOL. kidding. That’s being too arrogant, and i very humble one
We went to Suntec’s NYDC.
(right now, if some of u realised, the distance to travel on crutches from cityhall control to Suntec is a little far only)
we ordered everything the same sia.
EVERYTHING.
From the drinks to the main course (Three Amigos Pasta)
The lemon drink. forgot its name liao
The three amigos.
We chatted about stuff.
About kp people in sispec and a little bit about uni courses.
Then Sam made me do this “how man are u” test.
I got only 25%. Same as Grant and Liang Bin ( i think )
Darren got 75% la. Dexter and Sam i think got 50%.
Can’t really remember the questions but i will try and remember.
There are 4 of them and each of them there’s a correct answer to it which gives u 25%, so altogether it’s 100%.
1. Which kind of panties turn u on?
a) Purely white
b) White with polka dots
c) Black Lace
d) G-String
2. What a girl say will turn u off?
a) If u’re smoking and she asks u to quit smoking
b) She ask u to be serious (like when u’re talking and joking abt sth e.t.c)
c) She keeps on telling u about good things about another guy
d) She tells u to go home first when u are out on a date
3. How do u like to hold your girlfriend when u’re outside?
a) Fingers overlapped each other
b) Just holding her entire hand
c) Grabbing her little pinky (last finger) or she grabbing ur little finger (forgot which way it goes)
d) Her grabbing ur arm while walking (like she hooks her arm over one of ur arm)
4. What she does turn you on?
a) Brushing her hair back
b) Biting her lips
c) Sticking her tongue slightly out of her mouth (to act cute or sth)
d) Bending down and coming up (the 前凸后翘 thing – which means trying to accentuate one’s figure)
If any guy out there wants to know how man they are and you are bored enough to try these 4 qns, just let me know and i tell u how much out of 100% man are you. LOL.
After 3 amigos, we ordered 2 mudpies. We shared them too.
the non-alcoholic one. forgot the name
The one that got Bailey in it. Alcoholic. VERY MILD only.
The bill was like super easy to split la.
First time go out eat so easy to split.
The bill was like $160 plus, and we just divided it by 6.
Cos everything the same.
This is how army has taught us to standardise everything.
We then took the soft toys to pose with in the group photo.
Sam apparently liked the elephant so much that he was being very intimate with it. LOL.
the innocent-looking elephant
sam was playing with the elephant… ya playing
very wrong. very wrong
haha. sam was playing with the elephant, so i can’t manage to capture a still photo of him with it.
Should have taken a video la.
anyway, here’s the group photo (i prefer the sephia effect)
We went to catch a movie at Eng Wah.
The last time i came here was like in primary school?
the quality of Eng Wah really suck man.
The screen you can see lines on it throughout the movie.
We watched Harold & Kumar 2. Funny as hell.
It was a M-18 show. And it really deserved M-18.
haha. But still, i think the show’s better than meet the spartans and superhero movie.
I never watched Harold & Kumar 1 before but i’m going to do so soon. heard from darren it’s funny as hell too.
Anyway, the movie’s about these 2 guys.
they were supposed to go to Amsterdam, but Kumar was a retard and smoked weed on the plane using some invention of his. And ended up, they were mistaken for terrorists.
Sent to Guantanamo Bay, and have to eat cockmeat sandwich. (this is seriously sick. but damn funny)
They escaped without eating cockmeat sandwich, then met with alot of funny people along the way.
The show ended with this square root of 3 poem, which many people are looking for it online i suppose, including me.
It’s sweet i tell u. sweet as in good. not that “aww u are so sweet” sweet. get it?
anyway, the show has its fair share of nudity and profanities thrown here and there.
And there was this thing called the bottomless party (heard of topless party? ya bottomless here) in the movie.
The show also portrayed George Bush as a weed smoker.
Sorry for the spoilers here and there but if u were to catch the show, be sure to prepare a notebook and a pen or ur mobile to take down the poem.
LOL. then when u have it, pm me or sth.
(pm = personal message)
or best, u can do it illegally. I’m not going to say how cos i’m a law-abiding citizen yah my ass.
Yeah then my mum came over to suntec to fetch me.
Reached home around 11.30pm.
AND u know what?
i never played a dota game yesterday.
(played = a full game)
amazing. yeah. i’m amazed too. wow.
anyway, here’s the trailer of Harold & Kumar 2: Escape From Guantanamo Bay (or u can just visit www.haroldandkumar.com. they got other trailers there)
for some reason, u have to double-click to go to the youtube web itself to view this video on my mac, not sure for other comps. so ya.
I was playing wc3 campaign when my dad came upstairs to give me this letter from ntu
then along in the envelope, there’s this post-it note thing that is cleverly shaped like the IPhone.
Anyway, i was happy that i got into accountancy but on the other hand, I was thinking: is it that difficult to get in NTU Accountancy?
or is it like any other student out there who apply also can get in one.
I went for the interview a few weeks back and I found out it was cos my GP sucked. thats why i’m called down for interview. Some of the rest who got called for interview were cos their PW sucked, or their GP sucked or maybe the rest of their results sucked.
But yeah, i’m still happy i’m accepted by NTU accountancy.
just a lil bit disappointed about not getting the double degree course but i guess its okay.
Its Saturday today.
And if i were like the rest of the NSF guys who booked out ytd or today, i don’t think i will be at home blogging at this time of the day.
I will be treasuring my book-out time man.
Okay. If you are one of those NSF guy who’s at home at this time, i’m sure u’re doing more productive stuff than me. I’m not trying to say, “u no life ah. stay at home, like me.”
I was trying to show everyone how sian am I at home.
My mum kept asking me to do something productive, instead of playing games all day.
I agree with her totally but i just don’t know why I can’t do anything else that DOES NOT involve the macbook.
Like now, I got nothing to do.
I’m surfing the net.
I’m blogging.
I’ve visited youtube for about 3 times liao and each time after spending 10 seconds on the page, i will close the window.
I found this website: http://www.dotaguidebook.com/
Dammit. If only I could come out with a guidebook like this faster than the people who own this website.
Then again, i don’t think anyone would really go and buy a book like this la. $30 per book.
And moreover, there’s a 100% money back guarantee within 30 days.
Well, at least these people are doing sth that is worth the time (as maybe some 24-hr dota addicts might buy the book) but look at me. I’m blogging about stuff like this.
as if anyone would ever care about clicking on that link. haha don’t click just to prove me wrong.
My mum just started a facebook account recently and she asked me why i don’t want to accept her as a friend.
Then i told her that my facebook and friendster accounts are dead already, which also happens to be the truth. That’s besides the point.
The past few nights she has been wondering what facebook is all about, and adding frens, looking for frens. And i gotta admit that sometimes i got a little bit irritated with her asking my qns about what certain applications in facebook do. The reason?
it’s not i’m an easily irritable person but it was because i was getting owned in a dota game.
I’m a person who can multi-task very poorly and hence, if i’m doing something, most likely other people can tell from how i respond.
If someone talks to me online, that someone can straight away tell whether i’m doing sth else or not doing sth else. The same applies for chatting on the phone.
cool right?
that’s one wonderful fact about zi xuan.
oh wait. i gotta show u guys my room for the past 2 months or so.
on the left: that’s my bed
foreground: that’s ellen page on the table with my ipod and hp and some biscuits
background: that’s the door and the television
And the toilet on the extreme right. could not take a full photo cos the lens not wide enough.
Anyway, I sleep here.
I watch tv here.
I eat here.
I use comp here.
I pee, bathe and shit here too. (so as to speak)
It’s not my room la actually but it has been converted into mine for 2 months plus liao.
Monday to Friday: From 9am onwards, i’ll stay in the room until 6 to 7pm. Then after 9pm, I will be back there again until night time.
I read in the papers there’s this woman who stayed in this transparent “container” for dunno how long in her bid to quit smoking.
The glass house was situated in town or something. (cannot remember)
If only someone could sponsor me.
Build a transparent “container” in the middle of orchard road or something.
Then on it, there’s the words that say “Support Zi Xuan in his bid of quiting DOTA”
Maybe everyday got people come and chat with me.
We have tea parties.
We play hop-scotch.
We bake cakes, brownies, macarons, pies, muffins.
We watch televsion.
And maybe after 2 weeks, Zi Xuan will stop playing dota and dedicate his remaining lifetime contributing more to the society and doing things that benefit all mankind
Its 1.30am now.
Before i sleep, i think maybe i should update a little bit about what happened today.
1. Finally ended our losing streak in dota, we totally OWNED. with me playing as Lina “Big Boobs” Inverse, in one of the match.
2. I finally ate the toackers wafers today and I realised that it’s not very nice actually. I still prefer the Delfi wafers i ate last time.
3. My jaw still hurts, and actually it’s only my right side of the jaw. I’m not very sure if it’s my jaw or it’s my teeth, or my gum or maybe it’s HFMD! but anyway, i like to call it my jaw so it shall be my jaw. Chew food can only chew on the left side of my mouth, then must chew damn slowly somemore. Actually, come to think about it, the pain feels like a tooth has been plucked out from the right side of my mouth. omg. it really feels that way. ah crap. I just hope the pain goes away when i wake up tomorrow.
4. I think i totally exhausted my right calf muscle these few days. Kept hopping here and there. Then today i went up and down several times to get some things by hopping up the steps. And my right foot feels abit aching sometimes.
5. AND Ronaldo missed penalty at the 3rd min. Nicely done. 0-0 against barcelona.
Tomorrow’s friday again and it’s the weekend again and soon, the month, April, will pass us and we’ll be living in May.
And what’s the point of saying this?
My jaw feels dislocated now, and my teeth feels quite painful when I try to close my mouth.
And you know what happen before that?
I was bathing and lip-syncing to some songs on my itunes that were playing before i went to bathe.
DAMN RETARDED lah.
Anyway, today a clerk (i suppose) from Mindef HQ came down to my house.
He came to collect my mcs only and pass me 2 packets of TOACKER wafers and 12 packets of VITASOY.
He said SAF gave him $15 to get me some food.
Had a little chat with him. He’s quite friendly sia. and i really didnt expect SAF to be that nice.
lol.
The MAIN POINT is i’m staring at the packet of wafers now. NOT EATING it.
But my jaw hurts.
I’m really having a slight headache, like one part of my head very painful so i considered it a headache.
Anyway, i think it is cos i stared at the computer for too long.
Because, i’m starting to feel sian of dota.
It’s like u play and play, then make urself so agitated over a game. for what?
For those who didn’t know, i’m a guy who gets quite serious in games. I don’t know why but ya, it’s just me.
I was thinking that if my gaming personality is my real-life personality too, i think i would have very few friends. Very few.
Maybe after reading this post, my friends would be thinking i’m suffering from schizophrenia or something. Lol. but i’m telling the truth, i’m really very different when playing games.
Don’t believe? can ask maolin, handoko or yonghong. The 3 people who have been getting all kinds of shit from me the past few days cos we played dota together almost every night.
All of them, I believe, must be thinking: zx must be troubled by something leh. how come he so weird weird one.
sometimes in game, they will tell me, “hey relax leh. just a game.”
i know it’s just a game and i get damn pissed at people who treat a game so seriously to the point that they have to use profanities throughout the entire 1-hour game.
I cant help but think about it. What makes me different from them if I made myself so pissed over a game.
Actually it’s the same thing, just that i don’t really swear that much.
In fact, the only time i used the word “fuck” is when i’m damn freaking pissed in the game or something, u never hear that coming out of my mouth. (and i mean literally coming out of my mouth)
If u did, maybe some guy is impersonating me and i swear he’s not zx.
Recently, now and then i would receive some online msn messages asking am i okay and stuff like that. I appreciate it that my friends are concerned about me but the fact is i’m really okay.
Just for the record, I don’t purposely act emo and make people come talk to me. I’m not that kind of person. If u see me quietly sitting there in one corner, or saying very few words. It may just mean 2 things. err. wait make that 3.
1. I’m really damn ass tired
2. I really got nothing to say cos my role in group conversations is merely to sit there and listen attentively and to try and say some things (but always fails) to try and join in the main convo
3. There’s really something bothering me
okay, my point is I’m a very honest person.
If u really want to know what’s wrong with me, just ask and i will tell u.
And after i tell u, don’t come and ask me again, “u sure anot?”
this kind of qns really deserve a fart to the face from me.
I mean if i’m not sure of it, who is sure of it? you? then why did u bother to ask.
Lol. i think this is the most sensible thing i’ve said in this post. HAHA.
Anyway, i’m just dropping random stuff here so don’t expect to find it leading to anywhere.
Remember i said on my blog that i’m performing on 9th may at the vjco concert?
I’ve decided not to.
So if u had planned to watch it only because of ME, (i’m very touched. LOL) then i’m sorry but u’re free on that day already.
But i’ll most likely be going to catch the concert itself. I just hope that my mc will be extended after 8th may.
The only thing i’m going to regret about this decision is that i will miss the fun times with my juniors and going back on my promise. (i’m going to say this before tee start bombarding me with comments that will make me feel guilty) I know i’ve said last yr that if there’s a concert, as part of the alumni, i’ll sure come back and help one.
But that was last year. Then, i didn’t know i would break my leg, and I never thought that i would ever use crutches. Indeed, it really happened, when u least expected it that is.
Most of the army boys are back in camp tonight.
And I’m still out at home for the 8th week and counting.
In fact! today’s the 2nd month anniversary for my fractured ankle.
and i just rewarded myself with half a pint of Haagen Dazs vanilla ice-cream just now. And i realised that it doesn’t have vanilla beans in it, which would have totally elevate the taste of it.
SAD.
oops. i’m sorry for another wordy post. I didn’t do this intentionally.
Suddenly, this question just dawned upon a young and handicapped boy today.
He can’t help thinking about why do people blog and what is their purpose of doing so.
And so, he went blog-hopping.
He found blogs that talked about food, and these blogs got like don’t know how many gazillion pictures, and some of these blogs even got recipes and reviews on the food.
He found blogs that talked about people’s own daily recounts and adventures. Some of them were interesting while some of them were outright dull and boring – because today does not seem any different from yesterday.
He found blogs where people used it as a platform of emo-ness. He felt that these people seriously got nothing better to do. What’s the point of telling other people u’re emo? perhaps u want others to feel as emo as u, and take sympathy with ur emo-self?
But again, these people might really be very depressed and emo that they need a platform to say out whatever that’s on their minds; so he figured out that he should stop criticizing such emo people with their emo blogs.
He found blogs where people shared information with netizens, just like himself. From information on acquiring free software to information on how to win yourself a date with any girl to information on how disgusting some guys on this planet of ours can be.
Those are just 3 examples that came to his mind and are of no particular relation to his grey matter. (to put it in simple understandable english, it means that he does not give a damn about these 3 examples. he reads, he forgets)
wtc. (wtc = what the crap) ignore what i said in the last sentence and those words in the parentheses.
He found blogs where people not only blogged about occasional interesting happenings in their lives, but they also include pounds and TONS of pictures in their blogs. To him, it’s interesting because he’s a person who finds pictures more appealing than words. (which kinda explains why u can seldom find him reading a book or in the library) But sometimes, the loading of the pictures take so damn long that he can’t be bothered and so he just close the window.
He found blogs that are so dead that you can find spiders all over the blog and maybe some flies here and there stuck on the spider webs. (attempt to be lame: 99% failed)
The last entries can date back to like 1 year ago.
But being an understanding boy, he realized that not everybody is free to update their blog frequently.
and since blogging is like a personal thing, he shall not talk about this group of bloggers anymore.
and the conclusion he had after looking thru ALL these blogs is that..
is that..
blogging is really for everyone.
bullshit.
actually i forgotten what i wanted to say cos i saved this as draft just now and went out for dinner with my family.
it was a belated birthday dinner for my brother.
(ignore whatever i blogged about in front, i forgot about what i really wanted to say)
[just a slight note: i started this post on 17th April and today's 19th April and i think i will complete it tonight]
anyway, here are the pictures.
the whole dinner cost around 150 bucks? haha.
but the amount of food doesn’t seem like 150 bucks.
I’m too lazy to put all the photos one by one and describing them with some useless words (which i can actually do without cos remember? a picture is worth of thousand words)
yeah. i know i took some pictures of myself. I was bored lah. Sorry if it hurts ur eyes to see those pictures. We were waiting for my brother to come to vivocity cos when we reached crystal jade, he was still at pasir ris mrt station.
OH and i gotta comment on this. the coconut thing u see in the picture.
there’s scallops and mushrooms in it. actually only 1 scallop.
But i think it’s nice lah.
got coconut to eat somemore, can slowly dig. the whole thing look damn presentable also.
haha must try if u eat at crystal jade.
But, the price of one coconut like this is $8. Very nice too.
Today I performed at the East Zone Concert at VJC.
I wanted to talk about it but i’m too tired to do so,
and there’s the MOE psychometric test this morning.
Well, and yeah i was happy talking to some of the juniors today.
haha.
made some new frens with the backstage crew today, who are my juniors too.
later then.
I can still smell the mushroom swiss double burger i had at BK just now in my breath. lol that’s kinda sick.
that’s the time i woke up today.
DAMN amazing i tell u.
i didn’t exactly sleep at 7.30pm last night.
in fact i slept at around 1.30am?
i tossed and turned on my bed until 2am then i managed to finally fall asleep.
Woke up this morning with an itchy right eye.
now it’s still kinda hurting from all the subconscious rubbing.
had co practice yesterday and was smoking there.
don’t know how mdm wee sees it from the back.
like i said i want to perform, and yet i’m not putting in as much effort to practise hard for it.
i promise i’ll practise today.
1 min also practice, 1 hour also practice. (i’ll try for 1 hour la. but no guarantee)
yesterday was my brother’s bday.
and ya, i got a cake for him and kinda celebrated it in front of my macbook.
lol.
that’s the cake
that’s the bday boy and my mum
i just find this photo quite funny. don’t know why.
lol
don’t really like the cake though.
looks pretty but not very nice.
anyway, my interview yesterday it went okay i guess.
was quite natural when responding to the 2 professors’ qns.
one of them even stood up to pull the chair for me to sit down when i walked into the room for interview.
i started off talking about how i broke my leg and how many months i’ve been at home (have repeated this for so many times that i’m sian of hearing it myself)
well, ya. i guessed it went okay?
okay. its 8 am already.
still got like 13 hours to spend before i can watch joanne peh on tv at 9pm.
hmm.
1 hour for erhu.
2 hours for lunch and dinner.
4 hours for dota (pending)
6 hours to do random stuff like chatting on msn, youtubing, blogging, blog-hopping, cutting my fingernails, trying desperately to get photoshop (somehow from somewhere), eating the leftovers of ytd’s cake (that is if i’m really bored), reading newspapers, going nba.com to check out bball stuff.
there’s too many things to do in that 6 hours, so many that i can’t write them all here.
Oh, i’ve learnt a lesson in life.
I think sometimes things should not be rushed.
in fact, most of the times.
and it all starts from eating a simple meal.
so from today onwards, i’m going to eat and enjoy my meal slowly (cos somehow as long as u put food there, i’ll keep eating and eating. cannot like leave it there untouched for more than 5 seconds or something)
and not dump all the food onto my plate and start eating.
yeah, so the bottom line is?
